It.s six in the morning and Jax and I have been awake for half an hour already. Not my choice, but there isn't much you can tell a three month-old to make him go back to sleep. So I'm listening to tunes, typing one-handed with a squirmy baby on my lap, and thinking about Easter.
1. The past few years, though I have always believed in Him, Easter has flown by with hardly a second thought. This year, as I bury myself deeper in Jesus, Easter week has brought on joy and sorrow to new depths. The pain of what our Saviour bore for us has made itself new in my eyes, as well as the joy that we can have living on this side of the cross. Today, Good Friday, started off early, and though I felt sorry for myself having to spend it alone with the kids, I'm actually grateful that Lee decided to work. Having a few moments to ponder who Jesus is and how He loves us enough to make this sacrifice has reset my heart for the day. I don't want to be the grumpy wife who complains about everything, nor do I want to feel sorry for myself for being alone. Jesus is enough for me, and I think that's what He is trying to teach me this year. That all He did for us is all we'll ever need, and that everything else is a nice addition. The time will come when we will celebrate Easter as a family, but for now I am blessed to celebrate it in my heart, where He resides.
2. Being up early enough to watch the sunrise. Jax was up really early, but he went back down for a nap just as the sun was rising. I've always enjoyed the hours just before sunrise, before the world gets busy and distracted. The weather is calm and warm, the birds are singing, and we live in a blessed part of the world. Calgary is a beautiful place, if one stops working long enough to enjoy it. I get so caught up in the minutiae of my day that I forget to stop and appreciate what my life actually consists of. I'm incredibly blessed and clear minded enough right now to be incredibly grateful.
3. Classical music. I watched this video the other day, and it is by far my favourite TED video. I can't seem to get enough classical music since. It's more satisfying than candy, which is pretty amazing for someone with a sweet tooth like mine. I've been gorging on licorice allsorts lately, but somehow Chopin, Beethoven and Vivaldi are more decadent and delicious.
1. The past few years, though I have always believed in Him, Easter has flown by with hardly a second thought. This year, as I bury myself deeper in Jesus, Easter week has brought on joy and sorrow to new depths. The pain of what our Saviour bore for us has made itself new in my eyes, as well as the joy that we can have living on this side of the cross. Today, Good Friday, started off early, and though I felt sorry for myself having to spend it alone with the kids, I'm actually grateful that Lee decided to work. Having a few moments to ponder who Jesus is and how He loves us enough to make this sacrifice has reset my heart for the day. I don't want to be the grumpy wife who complains about everything, nor do I want to feel sorry for myself for being alone. Jesus is enough for me, and I think that's what He is trying to teach me this year. That all He did for us is all we'll ever need, and that everything else is a nice addition. The time will come when we will celebrate Easter as a family, but for now I am blessed to celebrate it in my heart, where He resides.
2. Being up early enough to watch the sunrise. Jax was up really early, but he went back down for a nap just as the sun was rising. I've always enjoyed the hours just before sunrise, before the world gets busy and distracted. The weather is calm and warm, the birds are singing, and we live in a blessed part of the world. Calgary is a beautiful place, if one stops working long enough to enjoy it. I get so caught up in the minutiae of my day that I forget to stop and appreciate what my life actually consists of. I'm incredibly blessed and clear minded enough right now to be incredibly grateful.
3. Classical music. I watched this video the other day, and it is by far my favourite TED video. I can't seem to get enough classical music since. It's more satisfying than candy, which is pretty amazing for someone with a sweet tooth like mine. I've been gorging on licorice allsorts lately, but somehow Chopin, Beethoven and Vivaldi are more decadent and delicious.
Chocolate Rabbits and Fiery Skies,
Steph
xoxox
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